okay..first real entry in a while i guess...i dont mean to bore anyone who may see this but this is something i need to get off my chest...the fact that my friends are choosing sides and such right now really doesnt surpise me...nor can i blame them...for those of you involved...i am trully sorry my personal affairs have placed you in this perdicament...i am writing this because i do not want anyone to feel obligated by the fact that they know me...i am withdrawing from this "competion" so to speak...i fully encourage you all to side with the other party...you are my friends and i will always love you..but i have a lot of growing up to do yet...so i am taking this time to take a step back from it all...the truth is that i just simply can not take this high school drama anymore...i need to move on...my friends i have grown up with you and will always love you...and should you need me...i will be right there by your side to see you through...but right now...i need to sort myself out...i need to grow up...recently i have begun to feel really isolated and distant from everyone...my interest are no longer what they used to be...jokes and music and dancing that used to make me feel whole no longer make me complete...i find myself constantly playing catch up and i no longer can understand a lot of what is going on...high school you were as good as you could have possibly been to me...but it has come time for us to part ways...i feel empty inside...some of you are still as close to me as you have ever been...nothing could ever sever us...but many of you...i dont feel like i even know anymore...no matter how much i care about you...those caught up in this parting of the ways...i am sorry...and i am the first to admit that i was in the wrong...i dont want you to risk friendships on my account...i just ask that you at least be honest with me...i bare you no ill will and trully understand your decisions...it is ironic that Gillia wrote what she did right as i sat down to right this...i guess it is just another sign that it is time...like i have been telling so many others during this past few weeks..it is just my time to move on...i love you all...forever and always...
-sarah aka kittie aka Ayame
ps..this is not ment to be offensive...completely the opposite